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Dear Aiden...if thats how your parents will spell your name

In the next day or so you are expected to be born.  I gotta say.  I'm really looking forward to being your uncle.  If you are reading this....well that means you are old enough to read haha.  

Right now, I'm in California.  LA to be specific.  You are 22 years younger than me....I don't know whether I should be excited for you or apologize.  These are quite the times for our generation.  We face survival in a way unlike every generation before...yet every bit as real and as perilous.  I can tell you I'm not to happy with my parent's generation about that...nor my own.   I suspect that you will face dire predictions and harsh realities in your time as well. 

Right now, I'd like to move back home.  I want to be with you and help you as you grow up.  But, Right now, I need to make sure that I have myself set-up to do so. 2 years....Thats when my obligation here is up....I figure that in that time you will grow up enough that I can --well have a clue.  Babies, what would I know. 

I have to say, I'm jealous of the extra bit of our future that you will get to see.  Mostly of the technological advancements. (and maybe some grammatical ones *cough*)  Advice. I'm supposed to give you some advice.  I want to give you some advice. ....well lets see.

Don't let anyone tell you its not possible or its not realistic or in any way say that what you want to do can't be done.  Don't give up, don't lose heart and don't let a single mistake be the end of it.

Learn.  Learn from your mistakes, learn from you success.  Learn from everyone and every thing around you.  Keep your eyes open---even when life is scary.   I know you will come out the other side.

Don't be too cautious.  Take chances.  Its life and you only get one shot (...unless thats changed...wow would that be cool).  If there is anything that I've gathered about my experience in life...its that I haven't taken chances enough.

Do what makes you happy.  If you like what you do you will have a much better chance at doing it well. 

Last piece of advice.  Sometimes what the generation before you said is wrong.  Fuck them. Do what you think is right.  If thats me, then tell me to fuck off and do things the way you think they need to be done.

Our family is kind of bad with the whole Love you business...so I'll just say

I've got your back
--Patrick

The baby has dropped....I'll have my nephew in a week or so ^_^

You are a Social Liberal (66% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (35% permissive) You are best described as a: Democrat Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

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I lost my glasses about a week ago.  Tore my apartment apart, along with every other place I go to.  On the recommendation of a co-worker I'm going with glasses from goggles4u. This is what I'm getting. They'll be tinted red.

I have been reading this book called The Introvert Advantage: How to thrive as an introvert in an extroverted world. I love this book. Written from the perspective of an introvert, the book provides an excellent guide to introverts.

Introvert Advantage not only gives you a guide for coping with common problems introverts have but it does it from a introverts perspective. Rather than being a how to struggle to emulate extroverts book. I.A. acknowledges the problems introverts may have, shows the strengths, and simply how to live your introverted life on your terms in an extroverted world.

Most books I have read on introverts have such a narrow idea of what the life of an introvert is like. The other books describe this scary world that an introvert lives in. Reading those books as an introvert myself, is just depressing. This book brings you full swing. Providing personal accounts of experience by either introverts or even the introverted author herself, touches the introverted reader on a deep I've had the same thing happen level. Then rather than providing some sort of guide on how to be an extrovert, the book gives personal accounts, tips and tricks on what you, as an introvert can do to be happy

I.A. recognizes a simple fact, most introverts think that their introversion is somehow wrong, that they should be excited to talk to many, many people. The book gives the reader a healthy dose of reality. A introvert has different needs than an extrovert. Those needs must be met just the same as any other need an extrovert has. The day to day goals of a introvert are simply accomplished a different way. Trying to do it the extrovert way won't feel natural and can have many negative side-effects.

If you are an introvert, I think you will love this book.

At least one out of four people prefers to avoid the limelight, tends to listen more than they speak, feels alone in large groups, and requires lots of private time to restore their energy. They're introverts, and here is the book to help them boost their confidence while learning strategies for successfully living in an extrovert world.

After dispelling common myths about introverts-they're not necessarily shy, aloof, or antisocial-- The Introvert Advantage explains the real issues. Introverts are hardwired from birth to focus inward, so outside stimulation-chitchat, phone calls, parties, office meetings-can easily become "too much."

The Introvert Advantage dispels introverts' belief that something is wrong with them and instead helps them recognize their inner strengths-their analytical skills, ability to think outside the box, and strong powers of concentration. It helps readers understand introversion and shows them how to determine where they fall on the introvert/extrovert continuum. It provides tools to improve relationships with partners, kids, colleagues, and friends, offering dozens of tips, including 10 ways to talk less and communicate more, 8 ways to showcase your abilities at work, how to take a child's temperament temperature, and strategies for socializing. Finally, it shows how to not just survive, but thrive-how to take advantage of the introvert's special qualities to create a life that's just right for the introvert temperament, to discover new ways to expand their energy reserves, and even how, when necessary, to confidently become a temporary extrovert.

I hope I pass.  I hope I pass. I hope I pass.

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I got my wallet stolen at knife - point tonight. 

I wasn't scared.  Just annoyed.

He wanted my phone too. I didn't have it on me.  I actually had to argu with the guy and show him I didn't have my phone on me.

Rock on! Rock on!

head bob. head bob.

sway sway

I've had a pretty fine day.

1 pop at ten thirty means I am up till at least now.

see Juno.  I command you all. see Juno.

oww!!!! Fucking headache's.  I need to go into the dentist.  ugh! I can't wait for new years.

ehhhn,   must muster desire to do homework...five more minutes of FFXII

YAY I HAVE PLANS FOR THE NIGHT!!!!

I'm actually kind of glad that I will be getting a roommate on Tuesday. It's pretty empty here.

Hopefully work will keep my mind entertained.  I can't wait to start on a new project. 

Sometime this week I hope to set-up plans with several friends.  I would really prefer to not have to go through another summer alone.  It was really nice at middlebrook just being able hangout with people on the fly.  Now, It'll require a little more effort.

My Votes

Bartender - Saw it at SBAM- looked really good
Revolutionary Girl Utena - Heared about it for years, i figure its a sure thing
Simoun - Had a reallly really high rating on Anime news network.
Welcome to the NHK! - Fun, good Plot, good mix of everything

Fuck i've been emotional lately.
I'm gonna chalk it up to not enough sleep.

so here's my question, what now?

I said that I would post but I will leave that for another day. writing now When I'm already drained wouldn't be good.

I had a pretty good day though.

I hope Elyse and Katie are doing better as well.

Your Worry Factor is 72%

The amount you worry is definitely borderline unhealthy. Even when things are going well, you find yourself fixating on the negatives. Try to remember the times you've been able to let your worries go. If you can do that again, you'll be much happier!

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are balanced, peaceful, and sincere. You're the type of person who goes along to get along. And you're definitely afraid of rocking the boat. Underneath it all, you fear your world falling apart. You'll put up with a situation that you don't like in fear of changing it. Disruptive and forceful people intimidate you - and sometimes exploit you.

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.